Turn to Me

Justin did not bounce back quickly from the spinal tap and chemo infusion as he has before. He is suffering stomach pain, headache and vomiting.

I held the bucket under his chin and relived the horror of those first few months of chemotherapy. I held him as he cried himself to sleep. It wasn’t until I felt the even rise and fall of his tiny chest that I let my own tears spill.

How long, Lord? How long will my child suffer? 

Justin awoke writhing in stomach pain. The on-call oncologist says he will need to come in to the hospital if pain continues.

Again, he is asleep and I am at his side. Attentive. Ready for battle. Out of need for due diligence, a vigilant mind momentarily eclipses an anguished soul.

Turn to me and be gracious to me,
for I am lonely and afflicted. Relieve the troubles of my heart
and free me from my anguish. Psalm 25: 16-17

Please, God, turn to me. Afflict me all day long but, please, no longer my son. 

One thought on “Turn to Me

  1. Praying for Justin’s pain to ease and go away. Prayers for peace for both of you as you suffer through this terrible disease and treatment plan.
    May the God of Peace give you peace, rest and comfort.
    Love, Pat


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