The results of Justin’s liver toxicity screening was good. The high levels have come down, but he will need to be screened every month now as opposed to the routine quarterly screening.
The high white blood cell count is still an issue but his doctor is hesitant to increase chemo because of the concern with Justin’s liver. Am I worried? Well, to be honest, I hesitate to answer that question.
Seems like anytime I verbalize faith, the enemy attacks. And, listen, I struggle with his lies just like everybody else. Maybe I don’t emphasize that enough because all you sweet friends out there write in such nice comments about me being strong and such.
I battle “the lie” everyday. I call it “the lie” because I think it’s the biggest nuisance of a piece of crap that we all have to deal with. It’s the same lie Satan got Eve with in the garden. He essentially was saying to her, “what kind of a GOOD God wouldn’t want you to eat this delectable fruit and become equal to Him as well?” He was implying that God must not be good to withhold something that seemed so good.
Extrapolate. What kind of a good God allows a child to be sick for days and days, weeks, months, even years?
The same good God who allowed His own Son to be obliterated on the cross so that we can have the one thing the human heart cannot survive without: HOPE.
Am I worried? Honestly, no. I’m still trusting. Will I be attacked for having bold faith? Probably. Will I believe the lie? Maybe for a brief time. But I will not stop going to war with it through my writing, prayer, truth, and good conversation with good friends.
Let’s be honest. Once in a while you get a great day at the beach, but, other than that, life is incredibly hard. I don’t care who you are or how optimistic you can be.
Life is hard.
But God, through Jesus Christ, offers hope. Hope is good. God is good. Don’t believe the lie. Grace be with you, my friends.