Day 1105

Justin is having a bit of a more difficult time with this latest round of chemo as some of his dosages were increased. He is dealing with fatigue, leg pain and roller-coaster emotions.

Unfortunately, I am still vomiting everyday and we don’t know why. I will see my GI doctor Thursday. I’ve been tested for everything and then some.

Weird. But I think maybe it’s like this chest pain that moved itself in a couple years ago. There’s no medical explanation for it. It’s some kind of manifestation of sorrow that tears just can’t quite express.

Because on paper, everything looks very good. On paper, Justin is getting better.

And he is!

But the cost. The cost has been great. We are nearing the end (most hopefully). I have run with endurance, but may fall on the finish line.

I am the spider in Charlotte’s Web. Fading. Running myself down. But, I have a sick child and two stressed out siblings. Like Charlotte, somehow I gotta keep these babies safe!

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Psalm 73:26

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