The surgery to place a central line went very well and Justin has been able to sleep peacefully for the first time in days. He was given the first dose in a 30 day cycle of chemotherapy. He vomited a few times but seems to be very comfortable now.

We met with the oncology team who discussed the process of chemotherapy in detail. My head was spinning. I have given it all over to the mighty hands God.

Instead of trying to process an abundance of information, I am focused on one thing at a time. One day at a time. “Lord, give us this day our daily bread.”

The terms I am hearing and discussions we are having all still seem very surreal. I was completely blind sided by this. It has been a gut wrenching, heart breaking few days.

I have been terrified. But I have also been so very amazed. The presence of Jesus here is so apparent, so real, so astoundingly beautiful.

“Peace I leave to you. My peace I give to you; not as the world gives I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled neither let it be afraid.” John 14:27

I am leaning into the words of Jesus and the truth of His word.

Justin is awake now and I am listening to him FaceTime with his brothers. There is joy in his words and it is a symphony to my heart. Grace be with you, my friends.