We are waiting on results of the kidney ultrasound. Justin responded well to the blood transfusion and so far the chemo has not made him sick today! He even ate a few bites of cereal! He’s still in a lot of pain and traumatized. I see fear in his eyes every time the door opens. So Jeff and I are staying close. In fact, I haven’t been off the oncology floor since we got here Sunday. I’ve been encouraged to take breaks, but I just can’t.

I am exhausted and emotionally drained but God is sustaining me.

I have thought in the past that I would never be able to handle something like this. One of my children fighting for his life. Sitting by helpless hour after hour. Wanting so much to absorb his pain to no avail. Apart from Christ, I would be completely falling apart. But I am still knit together by the loving hands of Jesus.

I’m experiencing quite a bit of muscle pain and feel my legs threatening to give out. But so far they are holding steady.

So in this moment I am thinking of a plaque on my wall at home. It says, “There is always something to be thankful for.” Indeed there is.

The Lord is my light and my salvation;
whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life;
of whom shall I be afraid?

I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living!
Wait for the Lord;
be strong, and let your heart take courage;
wait for the Lord! (Excerpts from Psalm 27)

I am continuously overwhelmed by your love and support. We’ve had videos sent, homemade food, gifts, cards and offers to donate blood. We are extremely touched and thankful for such loving friends in our lives. If you are following and we have never met, I already consider you my dear friend. Grace be with you.