My glance caught Justin’s mindful prayer posture during yesterday’s church service. Warming this mother’s heart, I couldn’t help snatching my phone and capturing this sweet moment in time. (Yes, I was paying attention to the service!)
But after a relatively active weekend, Justin is not feeling well today. Physical therapy was a kicking, screaming mess this morning. Justin, not me. Although, admittedly, I felt like kicking something myself.
This may sound like I’ve come completely unhinged, but the best part of my day was sitting on my kitchen floor half-laughing, half-crying, but certainly asking Jesus to take over this impertinent day. After fighting through my own physical limitations all morning, my legs momentarily collapsed and I ended up leaning against the pots and pans cabinet in full surrender. Yes, I was chagrined, but also fully cognizant of this apparent reminder to lean thoroughly into the strength of Jesus and not my own.
However, I don’t need to GIVE God control. He already HAS it. I just need to take a deep breath and hold onto Him.
And I will get tired again. I will get frustrated again. I will get sad or angry or grieved.
But to this place and purpose, God has called me. The significance of His calling far outweighs my feelings. God’s good design is of infinitely greater value than our fleeting sentiments.
I think of Queen Esther and God’s call on her life to be utilized as His instrument to deliver His people. She boldly approached the king, at the risk of death, to plead on behalf of the Jews for their protection. Her request was granted and many lives were spared. Esther 4:12-14
12 When Esther’s words were reported to Mordecai, 13 he sent back this answer: “Do not think that because you are in the king’s house you alone of all the Jews will escape. 14 For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?”
Such wise and true insight concerning God’s sovereign placement of each individual. Wherever we are in this moment, whether it be performing brain surgery or merely wiping our child’s snotty nose, we can take heart in the certainty that we have been placed there by our Creator.
Thus, no task lacks value or importance, no matter how mundane or seemingly trivial. No circumstance is without worth, whether it be undeniably painful or extremely pleasant.
Whether my heart rejoices watching Justin attentively fold his hands in prayer or grieves over the complications of his physical struggles and my own, I have reason to believe that BOTH scenarios are essential to God’s good purposes. “And we know that ALL things work together for GOOD to those that love him and are called according to His purpose.” (Romans 8:28)
Grace be with you, my friends.