We didn’t make it to the park today. Justin has been having stomach pain, so our oncologist put him back on Zantac. This is most likely a side effect of his oral chemo medication, but we are definitely keeping an eye on it.

Our journey seems to be defined by a pattern of ups and downs. We have very difficult moments and joyfully triumphant moments. Sometimes both within the same hour.

We currently have a short break from IV chemo and will resume on the 24th of this month, which will begin Justin’s third cycle of chemotherapy. However, he is still taking oral chemo meds at home.

We are hoping to stay out of the hospital and clinic over the next two weeks. But that will depend on Justin not catching a virus and staying fever free. Either of those scenarios could possibly send us back for more care than we can provide at home.

Justin is currently experiencing social anxiety. He is very reluctant to go out or to socialize with others. I’ve read that this is a common, unfavorable side effect of childhood cancer. We are taking it slow and stepping lightly but firmly when necessary.

I understand that there are many difficult layers to this disease as we continue to experience new, demanding challenges. However, I’m trusting that God will provide the wisdom that I request each day. And my confidence is not in my own strength or abilities, but in His might and deliverance.

“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord,
whose confidence is in him.
They will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit.” Jeremiah 17:7-8

Earlier today, Justin asked me if I could “get a fish and cook it.” Then he thoughtfully added, “make sure it’s a dead fish.”

Grace be with you, my friends.