I don’t mean the muscle heart. That keeps droning on, pumping blood and all. I mean my thought heart.

Because today they will check Justin’s blood. And, for a leukemia patient, that is like being scanned for the return of a tumor.

I will look relatively normal today. Brush my teeth, do the dishes, spend time with Justin. I will even drive him to the clinic.

But don’t ask me to make any big decisions or help Nicky with his Algebra homework (just kidding I can’t do that anyway).

My thoughts will be mostly focused on one thing. Healthy blood in our now nine-year-old son. Although I have been doing this dance for four years now, the struggle still gets real.

What can I say. God is in control and God is good. Thank you for continued support and prayer.