Justin came through a long day of procedures and chemo yesterday feeling relatively well considering all the different medications and needles he was given. And our prayers were answered concerning health insurance. Both the medication and home nurse were approved.

In fact, just about an hour ago, the home care nurse quickly administered the shot as I held Justin’s arms down. I noticed that he made a very speedy exit. Justin was not happy, and let both the nurse and myself know it. Loudly. I was glad the windows were closed.

Justin will receive two more shots this week. And then another set of four next week.

I’m feeling tired and emotionally drained. I keep thinking of an excerpt of lyrics to one of my favorite songs. Maybe because a sweet friend sent them to me the other day. Lord, I need you by Matt Maher:

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Teach my song to rise to You
When temptation comes my way
And when I cannot stand I’ll fall on You
Jesus, You’re my hope and stay

I am Justin’s “fall person”. I am there when he is sick, sad, hungry, tired, anxious, getting medication, being examined, getting his port accessed and now getting shots. I am always there.

Sometimes holding up the weight of Justin’s illness as well as my own gets to be an extremely heavy load. One that I just cannot stand up and carry. This is when my “leaning on Jesus” becomes “falling on Him.” And when I cannot stand, I’ll fall on you. 

He sustains. Without fail.

Thank you for faithfully continuing to pray for us. Grace be with you, my friends.