Today is a routine lumbar puncture to check for leukemia cells in the spinal fluid as well as to inject chemotherapy into Justin’s central nervous system.

I pretty much hate it.

But choosing to focus on the fact that this treatment is saving Justin’s life helps. 

Being pushed into adopting this outlook has certainly changed my perspective. For the most part, I have moved past some typical American attitudes.

I don’t worry about things that don’t really matter. I don’t feel self-entitled. I don’t work overtime to try to make everything perfect for my kids, or fair. I’ve learned that doing so, as a parent, isn’t really doing them any favors in the long run anyway.

I make tons of mistakes. I am flawed. I am human. But I am learning how to REALLY trust God.

Some people think it’s crazy to trust in Someone you can’t see. Something bigger than our own ego and capabilities. I say, what a relief. This is grace.

I have been playing music since the beginning, but recently discovered a little song which really helps him to relax.