Day 1,621

I actually forgot!

As we pass the FIVE YEAR mark since Justin’s diagnosis on January 16, 2016, I can report with gladness that the anniversary date of his diagnosis did not send me into a bout of struggling through post-traumatic flashbacks and unrelenting dark thoughts. In fact, to my absolute joy, I forgot the date until today. I actually forgot!

A Huge STEP…

This may seem like a gross omission, since we have looked toward this time with such faith, endurance and hope. But as one who has struggled and suffered and persevered with Jeff, Nicky and Michael, alongside Justin, all of these many days, I view it as a huge STEP. By His grace, I have been able to move forward. We have been able to move FORWARD.

There came a time when posting updates became too painful for me. I had to take time for self-care, rest and even moving into a new house. There are several reasons why we moved, but it is not lost on me that staying in the physical place where we experienced the longest of nights and greatest of pain was not healthy for the mind. We are so very grateful that God provided an alternative.

…only Jesus Christ can heal the heart and soul…

While it is true that I have walked through dark places with Justin, Jeff, Nicky and Michael and what often felt like being very, very alone, I also know what is not true. I was never alone. By His Spirit, Jesus was with me. I know this is true because we are HEALING and we are daily BEING HEALED. To me, forgetting the diagnosis date, even briefly, is evidence! Yes, chemotherapy, with its host of problems and side effects, CAN kill cancer. But only Jesus Christ can heal the heart and soul after being broken over and over again.

Justin will not officially finish treatment and move into the survivorship program until the end of March 2021.

If you are still receiving these updates, thank you for following and praying. Grace be with you.

“…And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” Matthew 28:20b

Justin, age 10. Five year cancer survivor. It’s an honor and joy to be his mom!

4 thoughts on “Day 1,621

  1. What a beautiful milestone. AND I love that you momentarily “forgot”. The absolute picture of God wiping away every tear. AMAZING.

    Also, as an FYI, Cici will be joining your boys at GCCS as of Feb. 1st! Just picked up her uniforms and we are PUMPED. (She’s a little nervous, but excited too.) See you soon! Love, Robin

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  2. Praise God for a date forgotten!! We don’t live by the calendar but by God’s Grace!! I see how there is reason for praise and excitement here. Every day is a victory when you have been through the darkest of times. We are thrilled to see God’s answered prayers as you get every closer to the survivorship mark. Thank you for sharing and allowing us to praise God alongside you.

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  3. God bless you for posting. I will continue to pray for you and your family. You have been such a blessing in my life. Thank you.

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